Tuesday, October 7, 2008
The Right Path?
{2:22 AM}


It's only one week before school starts and I must admit, majority would say that they hate this fact. As for me, I'm on the other side of the fence. I want school to start. Most of you probably would go, "Are you crazy?", "Mugger!", "Retard!" and all but I really miss the times I spent in school.

Results were out around three weeks ago and no, I did not get my 4.0. I was pretty shocked to hear rumours going around that I got another 4.0 when I clearly did not. It would have been great if it was true, but alas it's not. And don't ask for my grades cause I'm not telling. Not that it's bad though. :D

Every semester proved to be a challenge for me. I was recalling how Charlyn remarked that this semester was my slackest ever and I have to admit that as well. I mean, come on, I was juggling a lot of things back then. There was envoys, ba goal,naq, a maths and my endless projects. It was excruciating to even think about those stuff. I was pretty much loaded so much so that tutors even came up to me asking me to take a break. I guess, that's just my nature though to be involved in everything?

Three more semesters. Halfway through with my poly life. And after this upcoming semester is over, I will be in year three. Trust me, I really haven't planned out what I wanted to do after this. In all honesty. I probably and hopefully would want to head over to uni but to which one and what course, I have the slightest clue ever. Sometimes, I wonder what I want to do in life.

Many have asked why I chose Accountancy. Let me be truthful here. I never liked accounts. Okay, that's pretty much a little lie there. I liked accounts when I could do them and after my results shows satisfying results. However, maybe afterall, the chances of me liking accounts is probably 60%. That's passable right? For people who at this point of thinking that I'm hopeless in accounts, I scored A+ so far for my accounts in poly, which is pretty much a good feat considering the fact that I had to mug my ass off for it.

Some would even commend me for successfully clearing accounts. Some would say that my memorising skills are fantastic. But at the end of the day, I think I deserve some credit, don't I? I am proud to say that coming to poly has made me realize how much I know nuts about accounts and that going through these modules in poly made me understand it; making the interest in accounts grow.

Sometimes, I don't even know where I am heading to. Many have said that being an accountant reaps in benefits cause we are in need of accountants. On the other hand, many have said that accounts and me don't tally. They would rather recommend me a job in the media industry.

Maybe I should.

All my life, I had always wanted to be in Mass Communication. Sadly, my grades were too sucky and hence, that dream crashed. Then, when I flunked my O levels, I chose to go ITE Bishan. Reason being? I didn't want to do engineering in poly and that if I had to go ITE, I had to go to the best course in the best school. And so, I chose bishan.

After two years in Bishan, I headed to NS and reserved a place in Temasek Polytechnic's Law and Management. Along the way, I contemplated on the Mass Comm course at RP and then out of fun, I applied for Accountancy in Ngee Ann. I got in. My first choice. And without thinking much, I dropped my reservation for law and then joined ngee ann. How cool heh? Only cause charles was taking it and the course was one of the top courses in ngee ann and as a matter of the fact, in Singapore as well. I was apprehensive of course, cause I didn't think I would do well in a course I wouldn't like.

After three semesters, I would say that I'm on the right track. However, I keep questioning myself. Am I going the right path? Should I choose another? Am I studying for the sake of studying? Or at the end of the day, would I see the light at the end of the tunnel?

I have no idea. I guess at this point of time, I'm still exploring my options. There's still two more examinable semesters and attachment to go. Hopefully, by then, I would be able to give myself an answer.